“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.
Watch your words, for they become actions.
Watch your actions, for they become habits.
Watch your habits, for they become character.
Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny."
-Unknown
10 months ago, I was selfish.
10 days ago, I was sad.
10 minutes ago, I accepted reality.
It's taken awhile but I've finally realized I've become the person I've always wanted to be. This isn't an easy thing to admit but I'm proud of myself for being able to conquer everyones doubts. There were those times when no one believed in me and all i had was myself. I'm also proud of myself for being able to be so independent.
-Happiness comes with time.
-Nothing in life is handed to you, just like money doesn't grow on trees.
-Everyday is a new day.
-Everyday I am changing and becoming stronger.
-I'm beginning to build up an immunity to improper feelings.
-I don't know what I want in life but I know that any decision I make will be a good one.
As weird as it is to think about, I'm considering going home. I love it soooo much here but it's just hard SO to be away from everyone I love. I never imagined myself being so vulnerable. Nevertheless I'm giving it more time, and getting everything in order before I make any stupid mistakes.
Language camp was a bust. I don't think I learned anything which is kinda upsetting since my Spanish needs some serious tweaking. I did learn how to make homemade empanadas though!
They were super yummy. Being with the all the exchange students was really fun. Most of us were from the US and Germany. Additionally, Cuenca, is muy bonita! (Very pretty) There is a lot to do there too. Coming back to loja certainly felt good though. I like the way everything is layed out here and I love the markets.
School....IS THE HARDEST THING IN THE WORLD. I have grown to appreciate my school back in the US. I with out a doubt have taken my past 2 years in high school for granted. I would've gotten straight A's if I just would've applied myself a little more.
The curriculum here is so demanding. Even my ENGLISH class is hard. I give mad props to everyone in my school for being able to put up with it. I have like 87329472 teachers. I've been in school this whole week and every day I've met at least 2 new teachers who will teach us new subjects. They all get mad when I don't know understand. At this point in time I understand just about everything when spoken to semi-slowly. The teachers just speak a million mph and it sounds like one big mumble of words to me.
That's all for now. I think I'm actually still sick so I'm gonna drink some tea and take a nap. Hahahahahha.
Xoxxxxoxox
Sticking this out will be one of the best things you will have ever done in your life. As others have said, this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and you will ALWAYS fondly remember your 16th birthday, ESPECIALLY because it was so far away from your loved ones and comfort zone. The experiences you will have the next few months will be better than any experiences you could be having at home in the same timeframe. And when you finally return home, you'll soak in and cherish those new experiences all the more. Going away for a time is a sure fire way to increase your love for all of the people/things you miss while you're gone.
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