I have to say, crying myself to sleep every night is certainly an experience.
The fact that I don't feel comfortable in my own skin anymore is the worst part about being here. Some nights I go to sleep happy and looking forward to what life has to offer, but then there are also those nights I go to sleep with a wet pillow,puffy eyes and a heart full of nothing.
I know the decision I made about coming was a good one but I was never fully aware of the many consequences that came along with my decision. No matter how ready I said I was to leave, I was never ready at all. No one could ever prepare themselves for such emotional stress. It almost feels like everyone I once knew has died and now it's just their ghosts that are haunting me.
On a lighter note......
I spent the weekend at the country house in Malacatos. Ecuador and the US have many differences but the one I notice the most is the way they eat. Every morning I have fruit, eggs, coffee and fresh juice. The breakfast can more or less be similar to a breakfast in the US depending on how you look at it.
Lunch here is the biggest meal of the day. And is also the most contradicting to the US. Everyday around 3 lunch is served. First you get a bowl of soup, usually potatoe or green banana. Then, the main meal normally consists of rice, flavored chicken, salad with spices, and spaghetti with meat. Following that you get ice cream with a warm fig. After ice cream, you get coffee. If anyone from the US can say they get a lunch like that everyday then they should consider themselves extremely fortunate.
Dinner here is usually a snack. Or never eaten at all. I've been here 11 days and have yet to eat dinner.
I'm done writing and want to go sleep forever and ever and ever and ever.
Toodles
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